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但是如果他是个男孩那么他将成为你的合法孩子,他将继承你的爵位和这勒格贝啊。" 'I care nothing about that,' he said. " 我毫不关心这一切。"他说。 'But you must! I shall prevent the child from being legally yours, if I can. I'd so much rather it were illegitimate, and mine: if it can't be Mellors'.' " 但是你不得不关心!我将竭我的力量不使这孩子成为你的合法孩子,我宁愿他是个私生儿,而属于我一倘然他不能属于梅乐士。" 'Do as you like about that.' " 你喜欢怎样做就怎样做。" He was immovable. 他的态度是不变的。 
但是为什么不离婚?"她说,"你可以拿旦肯做个借口,真正的名字是必提出的,而旦肯也同意了。" 'I shall never divorce you,' he said, as if a nail had been driven in. " 我决不提出离婚。"他执意说,好象已经钉了一日钉似的。 'But why? Because I want you to?' " 但是为什么?因我是我要求的么?" 'Because I follow my own inclination, and I'm not inclined to.' " 因为我照我的意向而行,而我的意向是不想离婚。" It was useless. She went upstairs and told Hilda the upshot. 再谈也无益了。她回到楼去,把这结果告诉希尔达。 
我们最好明天走吧,让他静静地神智清醒起来。"希尔达说。 So Connie spent half the night packing her really private and personal effects. In the morning she had her trunks sent to the station, without telling Clifford. She decided to see him only to say good-bye, before lunch. 这样,康妮把她私人的东西收拾了半夜。第二天早上,她把她的箱子叫人送到车站去,也没有告诉克利福。她决意只在午餐前去见他道别。 But she spoke to Mrs Bolton. 但是她对波太太说: 'I must say good-bye to you, Mrs Bolton, you know why. But I can trust you not to talk.' " 我得和你道别了,波太太,你知道什么缘故。,但是我相信你不会对人说的。" 'Oh, you can trust me, your Ladyship, though it's a sad blow for us here, indeed. But I hope you'll be happy with the other gentleman.' " 啊,相信我吧,夫人,唉!我们大家都难受得很,的确。但是我希望你和那位先生将来幸福。" 
那位先生!那便是梅乐士先生,我爱他。克利福男爵知道的。但是别对人说,假如那天你以为克利福男爵愿意离婚时,让我知道吧,好不好?我愿我能好好地和我所爱的人结婚呢。" 'I'm sure you would, my Lady. Oh, you can trust me. I'll be faithful to Sir Clifford, and I'll be faithful to you, for I can see you're both right in your own ways.' " 我自然啦,夫人!啊,一切都信任我吧,我将尽忠于克利福男爵,我也将尽忠于您,因为我明白你们双方都是对的。" 'Thank you! And look! I want to give you this---may I?' So Connie left Wragby once more, and went on with Hilda to Scotland. Mellors went into the country and got work on a farm. The idea was, he should get his divorce, if possible, whether Connie got hers or not. And for six months he should work at farming, so that eventually he and Connie could have some small farm of their own, into which he could put his energy. For he would have to have some work, even hard work, to do, and he would have to make his own living, even if her capital started him. " 谢谢你!波太太!我接受我这点谢忱--可以吗?"于是康妮重新离开勒格贝,和希尔达到苏格兰去了。梅乐士呢,他已经在一个农场里找到了工作,到乡间去了,他的计划是,无论康妮能否离婚,但他是要离婚的一如果可能。他要在农场里作六个月的工,这样,以后他和康妮或可有个他们自己的小农场,那么他的精力便有用处了。因为他得工作,甚至是劳苦的工作。他得谋自己的生活;甚至康妮有钱帮助他开始。 So they would have to wait till spring was in, till the baby was born, till the early summer came round again. 这样,他们得等着,等到春天,等到孩子出世,等到初夏再来的时候。 The Grange Farm Old Heanor 29 September 吉兰治农场,九月二十九日书。 
经过一番进行后,我在这儿找到工作了,因为我在军队里的时候认识里查土,他现在是公司里的工程师。这农场是属于拔拉·斯登煤矿公司的,他们在这几种植刍袜和燕麦,以供给煤矿里工作的小马的食料,这并不是个私人的农场。但是他们还有牛、猪和其他一切,我的工资是每星期三十先令,农场的管理人罗莱,尽量给我种种不同的工作,这样,我从现在到复活节间可以尽量的学习。白黛的消息我毫无所闻。我不知道为什么她在离婚案中不出面;我更不知道她在哪儿和弄什么鬼。但是,如果我静默地忍耐到三月,我想我便可以自由了。而你呢,不要为了克利福的事而烦恼,最近总有一天他要摆脱你的。如果他不纠缠你,那已经是太好了。 I've got lodging in a bit of an old cottage in Engine Row very decent. The man is engine-driver at High Park, tall, with a beard, and very chapel. The woman is a birdy bit of a thing who loves anything superior. King's English and allow-me! all the time. But they lost their only son in the war, and it's sort of knocked a hole in them. There's a long gawky lass of a daughter training for a school-teacher, and I help her with her lessons sometimes, so we're quite the family. But they're very decent people, and only too kind to me. I expect I'm more coddled than you are. 我寄寓在一个很不错的老村舍里。居停主人是个海帕克的机关手,身材高大,长着一贪胡须,是个很信教的人。他的女人是有点象鸟儿的那种人,她喜欢一切上流东西和文雅的英语,满口都是"请允洗!"可是他们的唯-儿子大战中丢了命,这仿佛在他们中间凿了一个洞。还有一位是他们的高大的傻女儿,她准备着将来做个小学教员,我有时帮她预备功课,所以我是俨然家庭一分子了。但是他们都是正直的人,而且对我是太好了。我想我是比你更受人姑息了。 I like farming all right. It's not inspiring, but then I don't ask to be inspired. I'm used to horses, and cows, though they are very female, have a soothing effect on me. When I sit with my head in her side, milking, I feel very solaced. They have six rather fine Herefords. Oat-harvest is just over and I enjoyed it, in spite of sore hands and a lot of rain. I don't take much notice of people, but get on with them all right. Most things one just ignores. 农场的工作我倒还喜欢。这种工作虽不律津有味,但我并不求津津有味。我是习惯于马的人;乳牛虽则是很女性的东西,可是对我有一种镇静的作用。当然捋关奶的时候,我坐着把头依在它的身上,我觉得很是解闷。这儿有六条希尔福来的够漂亮的乳牛。我们刚把燕麦收获完了。虽然天下着雨,而且两手受了不少的伤,却给了我乐趣。我不太关心这儿的人,但是我和他们倒还合得来。有许多东西是人们最好不理的。 The pits are working badly; this is a colliery district like Tevershall. only prettier. I sometimes sit in the Wellington and talk to the men. They grumble a lot, but they're not going to alter anything. As everybody says, the Notts-Derby miners have got their hearts in the right place. But the rest of their anatomy must be in the wrong place, in a world that has no use for them. I like them, but they don't cheer me much: not enough of the old fighting-cock in them. They talk a lot about nationalization, nationalization of royalties, nationalization of the whole industry. But you can't nationalize coal and leave all the other industries as they are. They talk about putting coal to new uses, like Sir Clifford is trying to do. It may work here and there, but not as a general thing. I doubt. Whatever you make you've got to sell it. The men are very apathetic. They feel the whole damned thing is doomed, and I believe it is. And they are doomed along with it. Some of the young ones spout about a Soviet, but there's not much conviction in them. There's no sort of conviction about anything, except that it's all a muddle and a hole. Even under a Soviet you've still got to sell coal: and that's the difficulty. 矿业很萧条了。这儿是个煤矿区,和达娃斯哈一样,但是地方倒好些。有时我到酒店里和工人们谈叙起来,他们都怨声满口,但是他们决意不去变更什么,大家都说,诺特斯。代贝的矿工们氦都在适当的位置,但是在这种不需要他们的世界里,他们的心以外的其他生理部分,一定是在不适当的位置了,我喜欢他们,但是他们是不太令人激励的;他们缺少老雄鸡的斗争精神。他们大谈国有义,利益国有和全部工业国有等等。但是你不能只把煤矿国有,而其他的工业听其自然,他们说要给煤炭找些新的用途,这和克利福男爵的想法一样。在局部也许可以成功,但是在全国、全世界都成功却是疑问了。不管你把煤炭变成什么,你总得有个销路才行。工人们都是很冷淡的。他们觉得什么都没有救药了。这一点我是相信的。于是他们自己也跟着不可救药了。其中有些年轻的人,佩佩而谈要一个苏维埃,但是他们自己却没有什么确信。他们除了确信一切都是黑漆一团以外,再没有对什么的克确信了,即使在一个苏维埃之下,煤炭还是要卖的,困难便在这里了。 We've got this great industrial population, and they've got to be fed, so the damn show has to be kept going somehow. The women talk a lot more than the men, nowadays, and they are a sight more cock-sure. The men are limp, they feel a doom somewhere, and they go about as if there was nothing to be done. Anyhow, nobody knows what should be done in spite of all the talk, the young ones get mad because they've no money to spend. Their whole life depends on spending money, and now they've got none to spend. That's our civilization and our education: bring up the masses to depend entirely on spending money, and then the money gives out. The pits are working two days, two and a half days a week, and there's no sign of betterment even for the winter. It means a man bringing up a family on twenty-five and thirty shillings. The women are the maddest of all. But then they're the maddest for spending, nowadays. 我们既有了这庞大的工业群众,而他们又非吃饭不可,所以这该死的把戏就得将就演下去。妇女们现在比男子们更其絮絮不休,而且她们的看法更有把握。男子们是软弱的,他们觉得灾祸将临,于是他们苟且将事,仿佛毫无办法。大家尽管讲来讲去,却没有人知道怎么样年轻的癫狂起来,因为他们没有钱花了。他们的整个生命就是花钱,现在他们没有钱可花了。我们的文明和我们的教育便是这样:叫群众为花钱而生活,然后金钱便流出来了。煤坑晨现在一星期只作两天、两天半的工了,而又没有转好的征兆,即使冬天来了也不见得会好转。二十五到三十先令的工钱,怎么养活一家人呢?妇女们是最癫狂的,而我们今日花钱是癫狂的,也算是她们。
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