名著·查太莱夫人的情人 - 第23节


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  康妮再望着他。他的眼睛重新笑着。虽然带点嘲讽的神气,但是很蓝,很温暖,而且慈祥。她惊异地望着他。他穿着长裤和法兰绒的衬衣,结着灰白色的领带,他的头发柔软而润湿,他的脸孔有点苍白而憔悴。当他的眼睛不带笑的时候,显得很苦痛前的样子,但是总不会把热力失掉了。突然地,一种孤独的苍白色呈现在他的脸上:她在那儿并不是为了他呵。

   She wanted to say so many things, and she said nothing. Only she looked up at him again, and remarked:

  她有许多话想说,可是说不出来,她只向他望着,说:

   I hope I didn't disturb you?' "

  我希望没有打扰你吧?"

   The faint smile of mockery narrowed his eyes.

  一个轻轻的讥讽的微笑,把他的眼睛缩小了。

   Only combing my hair, if you don't mind. I'm sorry I hadn't a coat on, but then I had no idea who was knocking. Nobody knocks here, and the unexpected sounds ominous.' "

  不,我刚才正在梳头发,请你愿怨我没有穿上外衣,但是我并不知道是谁在敲门。这儿是从来没有人来敲门的意外的声音是使人觉得不祥的。"

  他在她面前走着,到了园路的尽头,把门打开了。他只穿着衬衣,没有那笨重的棉绒外衣,她更看出了他是多么的细瘦,而有点向前颂曲,但是,当她在他面前走过的时候,她觉得他的生动的眼睛和浅褐色的头发,有点什么年轻南昌活泼的地方,他大约是个三十七八的人了。"

   She plodded on into the wood, knowing he was looking after her; he upset her so much, in spite of herself.

  她局促地走到了树林里,她心里知道他正在后面望着她。她使他这样的不安而不能自抑。

   And he, as he went indoors, he seemed so unlike a game-keeper, so unlike a working-man anyhow; although he had something in common with the local people. But also something very uncommon.

  他呢,当他走进屋里时,他的样子不象是一个守猎的人,无论如何不象是一个工人,虽然他有些地方象本地的平民,但他也有些和他们很不相同的地方。

   The game-keeper, Mellors, is a curious kind of person,' she said to Clifford; he might almost be a gentleman.'

  那个守猎人,梅乐士,是一个奇怪的人。"她对克利福说,"他差不多象一个上流阶级的人。"

   Might he?' said Clifford. I hadn't noticed.' "

  真的吗?克利福说,"我倒没有注意。"

  但是他不是有点特别的地方么?"康妮坚持着说。

   I think he's quite a nice fellow, but I know very little about him. He only came out of the army last year, less than a year ago. From India, I rather think. He may have picked up certain tricks out there, perhaps he was an officer's servant, and improved on his position. Some of the men were like that. But it does them no good, they have to fall back into their old places when they get home again.' "

  我想他还不坏,但是我不太知道他。他是旧年才离开军队的一还没有到一年。我相信他是从印度归来对,他也许在那边得了一些什么怪癖。他也许是一个军官的传令兵,这把他的地位弄好了一些。许多士兵都是这样的。但是这于他们是没有好处的。当他们回到了老家的时候,他们便只好恢复旧态下"

   Connie gazed at Clifford contemplatively. She saw in him the peculiar tight rebuff against anyone of the lower classes who might be really climbing up, which she knew was characteristic of his breed.

  康妮凝望着克利福,心里沉思着。她看见了他对较下阶级的稍有上升希望的人所生的那种狭窄的反感,她知道这是他那一类人的特性。

   But don't you think there is something special about him?' she asked."

  但是,你觉得他是有点什么特别的地方么?"她问道。

   Frankly, no! Nothing I had noticed.' "

  老实说,我不觉得,我毫没有注意到什么。"

  他奇异地,不安地,半猜疑地望着她。她觉得他并没有对她说真话。说真切点,他并没有对他自己说真话。他厌恶人家提起什么有特别地方的人。人得站在他的水平线边,或以下,而不应该超出。

   Connie felt again the tightness, niggardliness of the men of her generation. They were so tight, so scared of life!

  康妮又感觉到她同代的男子们的狭隘和鄙吝。他们上这样地狭隘,这样地惧怕生命!

   When Connie went up to her bedroom she did what she had not done for a long time: took off all her clothes, and looked at herself naked in the huge mirror. She did not know what she was looking for, or at, very definitely, yet she moved the lamp till it shone full on her. And she thought, as she had thought so often, what a frail, easily hurt, rather pathetic thing a human body is, naked; somehow a little unfinished, incomplete!

  当康妮回到楼上她寝室里去时,做了一件很久以来没有做的事:她把衣服都脱光了,在一面很大的镜子面前,照着自己的裸体。她不太知道究竟她看什么,找什么,但是她把粉光移转到使光线满照在她的身上。 她想到她常常想着的事:一个赤裸着的人体,是多么地脆弱,易伤而有点可怜!那是多么地欠缺而这完备的东西!

   She had been supposed to have rather a good figure, but now she was out of fashion: a little too female, not enough like an adolescent boy. She was not very tall, a bit Scottish and short; but she had a certain fluent, down-slipping grace that might have been beauty. Her skin was faintly tawny, her limbs had a certain stillness, her body should have had a full, down-slipping richness; but it lacked something.

  往昔,她的容貌是被人认为美好的,但是现在她是过时了,有点太女性而不太有单男的样式了。她不很高大,这种风韵也许可以说便是美。她的皮肤微微地带点褐色,她的四肢充满着某种安胸的风致,她是身躯应有饱满的流畅下附的华丽,不过现在却欠缺着什么东西。

   Instead of ripening its firm, down-running curves, her body was flattening and going a little harsh. It was as if it had not had enough sun and warmth; it was a little greyish and sapless.

  她的肉体的坚定而下奔的曲线,本应成熟下去的,现在它却平板起来,而且变成有点粗糙了,仿佛这身体是欠缺着阳光和热力,它有点苍白面无生气了。

  在完成一个真正的女性上,这身体是挫败了,它没有成就一个童男似的透明无理的身体;反之,它显得暗晦不清了。

   Her breasts were rather small, and dropping pear-shaped. But they were unripe, a little bitter, without meaning hanging there. And her belly had lost the fresh, round gleam it had had when she was young, in the days of her German boy, who really loved her physically. Then it was young and expectant, with a real look of its own. Now it was going slack, and a little flat, thinner, but with a slack thinness. Her thighs, too, they used to look so quick and glimpsy in their female roundness, somehow they too were going flat, slack, meaningless.

  她的乳房有点瘦小,象梨予似的垂着。它们是没有成熟的,带点苦味,而没有意义地吊在那儿。她在青春时期所有的一一当她年轻的德国情人真正爱她的肉体的时候所有的,那小腹的圆滑鲜明的光辉,已经失掉了。那时候,她的小腹是幼嫩的,含着希望的、有着它所特有的真面目。现在呢,它成为驰松的了,有点平板而比以前消瘦了,那是一种驰松的瘦态。她的大腿也是一样,从前富着女性的圆满的时候,是那样的灵活而光辉,现在却是平板、驰松而无意义了。

   Her body was going meaningless, going dull and opaque, so much insignificant substance. It made her feel immensely depressed and hopeless. What hope was there? She was old, old at twenty-seven, with no gleam and sparkle in the flesh. Old through neglect and denial, yes, denial. Fashionable women kept their bodies bright like delicate porcelain, by external attention. There was nothing inside the porcelain; but she was not even as bright as that. The mental life! Suddenly she hated it with a rushing fury, the swindle!

  她的身体日见失掉意义,成为沉闷而赠晦,现在只是一个无意义的物质了。这使她觉得无限的颓丧的失望。还人什么希望呢?她老了,二十七岁便老了。是啊,为着牺牲而老了。时髦的妇从们,用外表的摄养法,把肉体保持得象一个脆嫩的瓷器似的放着光辉。瓷器的内面自然是什么都没有的。但是,康妮却连这种假借的光彩都没有。啊,精神生活!她突然觉得狂愤地憎恨这精神生活!这欺骗的精神生活!

   She looked in the other mirror's reflection at her back, her waist, her loins. She was getting thinner, but to her it was not becoming. The crumple of her waist at the back, as she bent back to look, was a little weary; and it used to be so gay-looking. And the longish slope of her haunches and her buttocks had lost its gleam and its sense of richness. Gone! Only the German boy had loved it, and he was ten years dead, very nearly. How time went by! Ten years dead, and she was only twenty-seven. The healthy boy with his fresh, clumsy sensuality that she had then been so scornful of! Where would she find it now? It was gone out of men. They had their pathetic, two-seconds spasms like Michaelis; but no healthy human sensuality, that warms the blood and freshens the whole being.

  他向后边那面镜子照着,望着她的腰身。她是日见纤瘦了,而这种纤瘦的样子于她是不台适的。当她扭转身去时,她看见她腰部的皱折是疲乏的,但是从前却是很轻盈愉快的!臀部两旁和臀尖的下倾,已失掉了它的光辉和富丽的神态了。失掉了!只有她那年轻的德国情人曾爱过这一切。而他却已经死去近十年了。时间过得多快!他死去已经十年了,而她现在只有二十岁!她曾貌视过的,那壮健青年的新鲜的印拙的性欲!现在她何处可以找到呢?男子们再也不会有了。他们只有那可怜的两秒钟的一阵抽搐,如蔑克里斯……再也没有真正的人性的性欲,再也没有那使人的血液沸腾,使人的全身全心清爽的性欲了。

   Still she thought the most beautiful part of her was the long-sloping fall of the haunches from the socket of the back, and the slumberous, round stillness of the buttocks. Like hillocks of sand, the Arabs say, soft and downward-slipping with a long slope. Here the life still lingered hoping. But here too she was thinner, and going unripe, astringent.

  虽然,她觉得她身体归美的部分,是从她背窝处开始的那臀部的悠长的下坠,和那两靡臀面的幽静思睡的圆满。如阿胶伯人说的,那象是些沙丘,柔和地、成长坡地下降。生命在这儿还带着一些希望,但是这儿也一样,她是比以前消瘦了,不成熟了,而且有点涩苦了。

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