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波太太态度在许多事情上是可钦佩的,但是她有一种驾驭他人怪癣和坚持自己的意志的无限的固执,这是新妇女们的一个癫狂的标志。她相信自己是全身全心地尽忠于他人。克利福使她觉得迷惑,因为他常常或一直使她的意志挫折,好象他的本能比她的更精细似的,是的,他比她有着更精细更微妙的坚持意志的固执性,这便是克利家庭副业这惑的地方吧。 It's a lovely day, today!' Mrs Bolton would say in her caressive, persuasive voice. I should think you'd enjoy a little run in your chair today, the sun's just lovely.' " 今天天气多么美好!"有时波太太要用这种迷人的动听的声音说,"我相信你今天坐着小车子出去散散步,一定要觉得写意的,多美丽的太阳!" Yes? Will you give me that book---there, that yellow one. And I think I'll have those hyacinths taken out.' " 是么?给我那本书吧--那边。那本黄皮的。哎,把那些玉簪花拿开吧!" Why they're so beautiful!' She pronounced it with the y' sound: be-yutiful! And the scent is simply gorgeous.' " 为什么,这样好看花!它们的香味简直是迷人的。" The scent is what I object to,' he said. It's a little funereal.' " 恰恰是那味道我不爱闻,我觉得有些殡葬的味道。" 
你觉得么?"她惊讶地听道,有点觉得恼怒,但是被他的威严压服了,她把玉簪花拿了出去,深觉深觉得他的难于应付。 Shall I shave you this morning, or would you rather do it yourself?' Always the same soft, caressive, subservient, yet managing voice. " 今天要我替你刮脸呢,还是你喜欢自己刮呢?"老是那种温柔的,阿澳的,但是调度有方的声音。 I don't know. Do you mind waiting a while. I'll ring when I'm ready.'" 我不知道。请你等一会吧。我准备好了再叫你。" Very good, Sir Clifford!' she replied, so soft and submissive, withdrawing quietly. But every rebuff stored up new energy of will in her. " 是的,克利福男爵!"她温柔地、屈服地答道。然后静静地退发出去,但是每次的挫折,都增强了她的意志。 When he rang, after a time, she would appear at once. And then he would say: 过了一会他按铃时,她马上便到他那里去。他便要说: 
我想今天还是你替我刮脸吧。" Her heart gave a little thrill, and she replied with extra softness: 她听了心里微微地颤动起来,她异常温柔地答道: Very good, Sir Clifford!' " 是的,克利福男爵!" She was very deft, with a soft, lingering touch, a little slow. At first he had resented the infinitely soft touch of her lingers on his face. But now he liked it, with a growing voluptuousness. He let her shave him nearly every day: her face near his, her eyes so very concentrated, watching that she did it right. And gradually her fingertips knew his cheeks and lips, his jaw and chin and throat perfectly. He was well-fed and well-liking, his face and throat were handsome enough and he was a gentleman. 她是很伶俐的,她的抚触是温柔的,缠绵的,而又有点迂缓的,起初,她的手指在他的脸上的这种无限的温柔的抚触,渐渐地她的手指尖熟悉了克利福的脸颊和嘴唇,下含和颈项了,他是个养尊处优的人,他的脸孔和咆部是够好看的,而且他是一位贵绅。 She was handsome too, pale, her face rather long and absolutely still, her eyes bright, but revealing nothing. Gradually, with infinite softness, almost with love, she was getting him by the throat, and he was yielding to her. 她也是个漂亮的妇人,她的苍白的有点强长的脸孔,非常肃穆;差不多是用着爱情,她可以提着他的咽喉,而他好对她驯服起来了。 
她现在是什么都替他做了。他也觉得在她物里比在康妮手里更自然、更无羞赧地去接受她的卑贱的服役了。好喜欢管理他的事情,她爱担任他的身体上的所有的事情,至于最微贱的工作。有一天,她对康妮说:"当你深深地认识他们的时候,一切男子实在都是些婴孩。啊,我看护过达娃斯哈矿里最可怕最难对付的工人,但是他们一有什么痛苦,而需要你的看护的时候,他们便成为婴陕,只是些大婴孩罢了。啊,所有的男子都是差不多的。" At first Mrs Bolton had thought there really was something different in a gentleman, a real gentleman, like Sir Clifford. So Clifford had got a good start of her. But gradually, as she came to the bottom of him, to use her own term, she found he was like the rest, a baby grown to man's proportions: but a baby with a queer temper and a fine manner and power in its control, and all sorts of odd knowledge that she had never dreamed of, with which he could still bully her. 起初,波尔敦太太相信,一位贸绅,一位真正的贵绅,如克利福男爵,是会有什么不同的,所以克利福开始占了上风,但是渐渐地,如她所说的,当她深深地认识了他的时候,她发觉他并不异于他人,只是一个有着大人的身体的婴孩罢了,不过这个婴孩的性情是怪异的,举止上斯文的。他富有威权,他有种种她所毫无而他能够用以驾驭她的奇异的知识。 Connie was sometimes tempted to say to him: 有时康妮很想对克利福说: For God's sake, don't sink so horribly into the hands of that woman!' But she found she didn't care for him enough to say it, in the long run. " 天哟!不要这样可怕地深陷在这个妇人的手里吧!"但是,她并没有说出来,因为她始终觉得她并不怎么把他放在心里。 It was still their habit to spend the evening together, till ten o'clock. Then they would talk, or read together, or go over his manuscript. But the thrill had gone out of it. She was bored by his manuscripts. But she still dutifully typed them out for him. But in time Mrs Bolton would do even that. 他们俩依旧守着从前的习惯,晚上直到点钟,是要在一起度过的,他们谈着,或一起读着书,或校阅着他的草稿。但是此中的乐趣早山消失了,他的草稿使康妮烦厌,但是她还是尽她的义务,替他用打字机抄录着,不过,不要等待多时,那奖是波太太来做这工作了。 
因为康妮对疲太太提议过她应该学习打字,波太太是随时都准备着动手的人,她马上便开始了,而且勤勉地练习着,现在,克利福有时口念着一封信叫她打,她可以打出来了,虽然是有点缓慢,但是没有错了,他很有耐性地把难宇和遇着要用法文时一个个的字母念给她。她是这样的兴奋,所以教授她差不多可说是一件乐事了。 Now Connie would sometimes plead a headache as an excuse for going up to her room after dinner. 现在,晚饭过后,有时康妮便借口头痛到楼上房里去了。 Oh, I shall be perfectly all right. You go to your own room and rest, darling.' " 啊,不要担心,你回房里去休息,亲爱的。" But no sooner had she gone, than he rang for Mrs Bolton, and asked her to take a hand at piquet or bezique, or even chess. He had taught her all these games. And Connie found it curiously objectionable to see Mrs Bolton, flushed and tremulous like a little girl, touching her queen or her knight with uncertain fingers, then drawing away again. And Clifford, faintly smiling with a half-teasing superiority, saying to her: 但是她走了不久,他便按铃叫波太太来一玩皮克或齐克纸牌戏,甚至下象棋了,他把这些游戏都教给了她;康妮觉她波太太那种红着兴奋得象女孩子似的样子,手指怪不安地举着他的棋子又不敢动的样子,真是难看,克利福用着一种优胜者的半嘲弄的微笑,对她说: You must say j'adoube!' " 你应当说:我调子了!" 
她的光亮的惊异的眼睛望着他,然后含郑地驯服地低声说: J'adoube!' " 我调子了!" Yes, he was educating her. And he enjoyed it, it gave him a sense of power. And she was thrilled. She was coming bit by bit into possession of all that the gentry knew, all that made them upper class: apart from the money. That thrilled her. And at the same time, she was making him want to have her there with him. It was a subtle deep flattery to him, her genuine thrill. 是的,他正教育着她,他觉得这是一件快乐的事,这给他一种权威的感觉。而她呢,也觉她迷醉,而同时,她使他觉得需要她在身边,她的天真的迷醉,对他是一种微妙的深深的阿瘐。
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