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不,不。他答道。突然地,他用着那种古代的结合人类的热情,把她紧紧地抱在杯里。"不,我觉得那个太好了,太好了,你也觉得吗?" 'Yes, for me too,' she answered, a little untruthfully, for she had not been conscious of much. " 是的,我也觉得。"她有点不诚实地答道。因为她实在并没有觉得怎样。 He kissed her softly, softly, with the kisses of warmth. 他温柔地,温柔地,热吻着她。 'If only there weren't so many other people in the world,' he said lugubriously. " 假如世界上没有这许多人,那就好了。"他悲伤地说。 She laughed. They were at the gate to the park. He opened it for her. 她笑着,他们到了园门口了,他替她把门打开。 
我不再送了。"他说。 'No!' And she held out her hand, as if to shake hands. But he took it in both his. " 不!"她把手伸了出去和他握别,但是他却用双手接着; 'Shall I come again?' she asked wistfully. " 你要我再来么?"她热切地问道。 'Yes! Yes!' " 是的!是的!" She left him and went across the park. He stood back and watched her going into the dark, against the pallor of the horizon. Almost with bitterness he watched her go. She had connected him up again, when he had wanted to be alone. She had cost him that bitter privacy of a man who at last wants only to be alone. 她离开了他,向园中过去,他在后边望着向灰暗的园中进去,心里差不多感着痛苦地望着她定了。他原本是要守着他的孤独的,现在他使他再想起人间的关系来了。好恰牺性了自由,一个孤独者的示的自由。 
他向黑暗的林中回去,一切都静寂着,月亮也沉了,但是他听得见夜之声响,他听得见史德门的机器和大路上来往的车辆。他慢慢地攀登那赤裸的山坡。在山上,他可以看见整个乡村,史德门的一排一排的火光,达娃斯哈煤小灯光和达娃斯哈村里的黄光。昏暗的乡村里,随处都是光,远过地,他可以看见,高炉在发着轻淡的粉红色,因为夜色清明,白热的金属发着玫瑰的颜色,史德门的电灯光,又尖锐又刺眼!多么令人难解的含着恶意的光辉!这一切米德兰工业区的夜的不安和永久的恐怖。他听得见史德门的车盘响着,载着七点钟的工人到煤坑里去,矿场是分三班轮流工作的。 He went down again into the darkness and seclusion of the wood. But he knew that the seclusion of the wood was illusory. The industrial noises broke the solitude, the sharp lights, though unseen, mocked it. A man could no longer be private and withdrawn. The world allows no hermits. And now he had taken the woman, and brought on himself a new cycle of pain and doom. For he knew by experience what it meant. 他向幽暗的僻静的树林里下去。但是他知道树林的僻静是欺人的了。工业的嘈声把寂静破坏了。那尖锐的灯光,虽不能见,也把寂静嘲弄着。再也没有谁可以孤独,再也没有僻静的地方,世界再也不容有隐遁者了,现在,他已经得到了这个妇人,并且加了自己一个新的痛苦与罪罚的枷锁了,因为他从经验得知这是怎么一回事的。 It was not woman's fault, nor even love's fault, nor the fault of sex. The fault lay there, out there, in those evil electric lights and diabolical rattlings of engines. There, in the world of the mechanical greedy, greedy mechanism and mechanized greed, sparkling with lights and gushing hot metal and roaring with traffic, there lay the vast evil thing, ready to destroy whatever did not conform. Soon it would destroy the wood, and the bluebells would spring no more. All vulnerable things must perish under the rolling and running of iron. 这并不是妇人的过失,甚至不是爱情过失,也不是性欲的过失,过失是从那边来的,从那邪恶的电灯光和恶魔似的机器之嚣声里来的,那边,那贪婪的机械化验的贪婪世界,闪着灯光,吐炽热的金属,激着熙来攘往的喧声,那儿便是罪恶所在的地方,准备着把不能同流台污的东西一概毁灭,不那世界全果把这树林毁灭了,吊钟花将不再开花了,一切可以受作用的东西,定要在铁的跟随瞒之下消灭。 He thought with infinite tenderness of the woman. Poor forlorn thing, she was nicer than she knew, and oh! so much too nice for the tough lot she was in contact with. Poor thing, she too had some of the vulnerability of the wild hyacinths, she wasn't all tough rubber-goods and platinum, like the modern girl. And they would do her in! As sure as life, they would do her in, as they do in all naturally tender life. Tender! Somewhere she was tender, tender with a tenderness of the growing hyacinths, something that has gone out of the celluloid women of today. But he would protect her with his heart for a little while. For a little while, before the insentient iron world and the Mammon of mechanized greed did them both in, her as well as him. 他用无限的温情想着那妇人,可怜的无依无靠的人,她不知道也自己是这样可爱。呵!太可爱了!她所接触的庸欲之流太不配她了!可怜的人儿,她也有点象野玉簪似的易伤地嫩弱,她并不象近代女子似的,全是树胶品和白金。他们要压刀的!那是毫无疑义了,他们要压倒她,如同他们压倒一切自然的温柔的生活一样,温柔!她有点什么温柔的东西,象滋长着的温柔的玉簪花似的温柔的东西,这东西是今日化学晶的妇女们所没有的了,但是他定要诚恳地把她保护一些时日,只一些时日,直至无情的铁世界和机械化的贪婪世界把她和他自己同时压倒。 He went home with his gun and his dog, to the dark cottage, lit the lamp, started the fire, and ate his supper of bread and cheese, young onions and beer. He was alone, in a silence he loved. His room was clean and tidy, but rather stark. Yet the fire was bright, the hearth white, the petroleum lamp hung bright over the table, with its white oil-cloth. He tried to read a book about India, but tonight he could not read. He sat by the fire in his shirt-sleeves, not smoking, but with a mug of beer in reach. And he thought about Connie. 他带着他的狗和枪归,到了他阴暗的村舍里,把灯点了,把火炉里的火生了,然后吃晚餐:一些面包和奶酷一些小葱头和酒。他在他所深爱的静默中孤独着。他的房子是清洁的。整齐的,但是有些冷清,可炉火是光耀的,炉床是白,白漆布铺着椅子上面悬着的一盏煤油灯也是光亮亮的,他想拿一本关于印度的书来看,但是今晚他却不能看书了,他穿一件衬,坐在火旁边,并不吸烟,但是有一杯啤酒在手旁边,他思念着康妮。 
实在说来,他是懊悔发生了那种事情的,那懊悔也许大部分是为了她的缘故,他感觉到一个预兆,那并不是过失或罪恶的预兆,这一点他的意识是不会扰乱的,他知道一个人的意识所最怕惧的,是社会,或是自己,他并不惧怕自己。但是他很显然地惧怕社会,他本能地知道这社会是恶毒的、半疯狂的野兽。 The woman! If she could be there with him, arid there were nobody else in the world! The desire rose again, his penis began to stir like a live bird. At the same time an oppression, a dread of exposing himself and her to that outside Thing that sparkled viciously in the electric lights, weighed down his shoulders. She, poor young thing, was just a young female creature to him; but a young female creature whom he had gone into and whom he desired again. 那妇人!要是她能够在城和他在一起,而除了他俩以外,世界绝无第三者了,那么多情欲重新涌了起来,他的阴茎象一只活的小鸟似地兴奋着,同时他又觉得被一种恐惧压制着,他恐惧着自己和她要被外面那些电灯光里含恶意地闪耀着的"东西"所吞食,她,这可怜的年轻的人儿,在他看来,她只是一个年轻的女性的生物罢了,但是这却是一个你曾深进过,并且他还在欲望着进去的一个年轻的生物。 Stretching with the curious yawn of desire, for he had been alone and apart from man or woman for four years, he rose and took his coat again, and his gun, lowered the lamp and went out into the starry night, with the dog. Driven by desire and by dread of the malevolent Thing outside, he made his round in the wood, slowly, softly. He loved the darkness arid folded himself into it. It fitted the turgidity of his desire which, in spite of all, was like a riches; the stirring restlessness of his penis, the stirring fire in his loins! Oh, if only there were other men to be with, to fight that sparkling electric Thing outside there, to preserve the tenderness of life, the tenderness of women, and the natural riches of desire. If only there were men to fight side by side with! But the men were all outside there, glorying in the Thing, triumphing or being trodden down in the rush of mechanized greed or of greedy mechanism. 在欲望中,他奇异地打着哈尔,伸着懒腰,因为他远离男女们孤独地生活着已经四年了,他站了起来,把灯火弄小了,拿了外衣和枪,带着狗儿出去。那是一个繁星之夜,欲望,以及对于外界的恶意的"东西"的恐惧情绪推着他,他缓缓地,幽幽地,在树林中巡逻,他爱黑暗,他把自己投在黑暗的怀里,夜色正适合于他的膨胀的欲望。这欲望,无论如何象是一种财富,不巡地兴奋着的他的阴茎,火焚着他的两腰!呵!要是可以和一些人联合起来,去和那外界的、闪光的、电的"东西"抗战,去把生命的温柔,女人的温柔,和自然的欲望的财富保存起来,那就好了!但是所有的人都是在那边,迷醉着那些"东西",胜利着,或惨败于那机械化的念婪或念婪的机械主义铁蹄之下。 Constance, for her part, had hurried across the park, home, almost without thinking. As yet she had no afterthought. She would be in time for dinner. 康妮,在她这方面,差不多并不思索什么,她赶快穿过了花园回家去,她还来得及吃晚饭的。 She was annoyed to find the doors fastened, however, so that she had to ring. Mrs Bolton opened. 可是,当她到了门口时,门是关着了,这一来她得去按铃了,这却使她烦恼起来,来开门的是波尔敦太太。 
呀!你回来了,夫人!我正开始奇怪着你是不是迷失了呢!"她有点笑谈地说,"但是克利福男爵却没有问起你;他同林先生谈着话,我看他是在这儿晚餐吧,是不是,夫人?" 'It does rather,' said Connie. " 大概是罢。"康妮说。 'Shall I put dinner back a quarter of an hour? That would give you time to dress in comfort.' " 要不是迟一刻钟开饭?这一来你全阅以从容地换拾裳了。"
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