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我辛辛苦苦从事各项工作，仅仅是因为我看到那只脚印，因而产生了种种疑惧。其实，直到现在，我还没有看到任何人到岛上来过。就这样在这种忐忑不安的心情下我又过了两年。这种不安的心情使我的生活远远不如从前那样舒畅了。这种情况任何人都可以想象的。试想一个人成天提心吊胆地生活，生怕有人会害他，这种生活会有什么乐趣呢？更令我痛心的是，这种不安的心情大大影响了我的宗教观念。因为我时刻担心落到野人或食人生番的手里，简直无心祈祷上帝；即使在祈祷的时候，也已不再有以往那种宁静和满足的心情了。我祈祷时，心情苦恼，精神负担很重，仿佛危机四伏，每夜都担心可能被野人吃掉似的。经验表明，平静、感激和崇敬的心情比恐怖和不安的心情更适于祈祷。一个人在大祸临头的恐惧下作祈祷，无异于在病榻上作忏悔祈祷，心情同样不安。这种时候是不宜作祈祷的，因为，这种不安的心情影响到一个人的心理，正如疾病影响肉体一样。不安是心灵上的缺陷，其危害性不亚于肉体上的缺陷，甚至超过肉体上的缺陷。而祈祷是心灵的行为，不是肉体的行为。 But to go on; After I had thus secur'd one Part of my little living Stock, I went about the whole Island, searching for another private Place, to make such another Deposit; when wandring more to the West Point of the Island, than I had ever done yet, and looking out to Sea, I thought I saw a Boat upon the Sea, at a great Distance; I had found a Prospective Glass, or two, in one of the Seamen's Chests, which I sav'd out of our Ship; but I had it not about me, and this was so remote, that I could not tell what to make of it; though I look'd at it till my Eyes were not able to hold to look any longer; whether it was a Boat, or not, I do not know; but as I descended from the Hill, I could see no more of it, so I gave it over; only I resolv'd to go no more out without a Prospective Glass in my Pocket. 现在，再接着说说我接下去做的事。我把一部分家畜安置妥当后，便走遍全岛，想再找一片这样深幽的地方，建立一个同样的小圈地养羊。我一直往岛的西部走，到了一个我从前从未涉足的地方。我往海里一看，仿佛看到极远处有一只船。我曾从破船上一个水手的箱子里找到了一两只望远镜，可惜没有带在身边。那船影太远，我也说不准到底是否是船。我一直凝望着，看得我眼睛都痛得看不下去了。当我从山上下来时，那船影似的东西已完全消失了，我也只好随它去了。不过，我由此下了决心，以后出门衣袋里一定要带一副望远镜。 When I was come down the Hill, to the End of the Island, where indeed I had never been before, I was presently convinc'd, that the seeing the Print of a Man's Foot, was not such a strange Thing in the Island as I imagin'd; and but that it was a special Providence that I was cast upon the Side of the Island, where the Savages never came: I should easily have known, that nothing was more frequent than for the Canoes from the Main, when they happen'd to be a little too far out at Sea, to shoot over to that Side of the Island for Harbour; likewise as they often met, and fought in their Canoes, the Victors having taken any Prisoners, would bring them over to this Shore, where according to their dreadful Customs, being all Canibals, they would kill and eat them; of which hereafter. 我走下山岗，来到小岛的尽头。这一带我以前从未来过。一到这里，我马上明白，在岛上发现人的脚印，并不像我原来想象的那样稀奇。只是老天爷有意安排，让我飘流到岛上野人从来不到的那一头。否则，我早就知道，那些大陆上来的独木舟，有时在海上走得太远了，偶尔会渡过海峡到岛的这一边来找港口停泊。这是经常有的事。而且，他们的独木舟在海上相遇时，经常要打仗，打胜了的部落就把抓到的俘虏带到岛上这边来，按照他们吃人部落的习惯，把俘虏杀死吃掉。关于吃人肉的事，我下面再谈。 When I was come down the Hill, to the Shore, as I said above, being the S.W. Point of the Island, I was perfectly confounded and amaz'd; nor is it possible for me to express the Horror of my Mind, at seeing the Shore spread with Skulls, Hands, Feet, and other Bones of humane Bodies; and particularly I observ'd a Place where there had been a Fire made, and a Circle dug in the Earth, like a Cockpit, where it is suppos'd the Savage Wretches had sat down to their inhumane Feastings upon the Bodies of their Fellow-Creatures. I was so astonish'd with the Sight of these Things, that I entertain'd no Notions of any Danger to my self from it for a long while; All my Apprehensions were bury'd in the Thoughts of such a Pitch of inhuman, hellish Brutality, and the Horror of the Degeneracy of Humane Nature; which though I had heard of often, yet I never had so near a View of before; in short, I turn'd away my Face from the horrid Spectacle; my Stomach grew sick, and I was just at the Point of Fainting, when Nature discharg'd the Disorder from my Stomach; and having vomited with an uncommon violence, I was a little reliev'd; but cou'd not bear to stay in the Place a Moment; so I gat me up the Hill again, with the Speed I cou'd, and walk'd on towards my own Habitation. 再说我从山岗上下来，走到岛的西南角，我马上就吓得惊惶失措，目瞪口呆了。只见海岸上满地都是人的头骨、手骨、脚骨，以及人体其他部分的骨头，我心里的恐怖，简直无法形容。我还看到有一个地方曾经生过火，地上挖了一个斗鸡坑似的圆圈，那些野蛮人大概就围坐在那里，举行残忍的宴会，吃食自己同类的肉体。见到这一情景，我简直惊愕万分。好久好久，我忘记了自身的危险。想到这种极端残忍可怕的行为，想到人性竟然堕落到如此地步，我忘记了自己的恐惧。吃人的事我以前虽然也经常听人说起过，可今天才第一次亲眼看到吃人留下的现常我转过脸去，不忍再看这可怕的景象。我感到胃里东西直往上冒，人也几乎快晕倒了，最后终于恶心得把胃里的东西都吐了出来。我吐得很厉害，东西吐光后才略感轻松些。但我一分钟也不忍心再待下去了，所以马上拔脚飞跑上小山，向自己的家里走去。 When I came a little out of that Part of the Island, I stood a while as amaz'd; and then recovering my self, I look'd with the utmost Affection of my Soul, and with a Flood Tears in my Eyes, gave God Thanks that had cast my Lot in a Part of the World, where I was distinguish'd from such dreadful Creatures as these; and that though I had esteem'd my present Condition very miserable, had yet given me so many Comforts in it, that I had still more to give Thanks for than to complain of; and this above all, that had even in this miserable Condition been comforted with the Knowledge of himself, and the Hope of his Blessing, which was a Felicity more than sufficiently equivalent to all the Misery which I had suffer'd, or could suffer. 当我略微跑远吃人现场之后，还是惊魂不定，呆呆地在路上站了一会儿。直到后来，心情才稍稍安定下来。我仰望苍天，热泪盈眶，心里充满了感激之情，感谢上帝把我降生在世界上别的地方，使我没有与这些可怕的家伙同流合污。尽管我感到自己目前的境况十分悲惨，但上帝还是在生活上给我种种照顾。我不仅不应该抱怨上帝，而且应衷心地感激他。尤其是，在这种不幸的境遇中，上帝指引我认识他，乞求他的祝福，这给了我莫大的安慰。这种幸福足以补偿我曾经遭受的和可能遭受的全部不幸还有余。 
我就怀着这种感激的心情回到了我的城堡。我比以往任何时候都感到自己的住所安全可靠，因而心里也宽慰多了。因为我看到，那些残忍的食人部落来到岛上并不是为了寻找什么他们所需要的东西；他们到这儿来根本不是为了寻求什么，需求什么或指望得到什么。因为，有一点是毫无疑问的：那就是他们一般在树深林密的地方登岸后，从未发现过任何他们所需要的东西。我知道，我在岛上已快十八年了，在这儿，我从未见过人类的足迹。只要我自己不暴露自己，只要自己像以前一样很好地隐蔽起来，我完全可以再住上十八年。何况，我当然绝不会暴露自己，因为我唯一的目的就是很好地隐蔽自己，除非我发现比吃人生番更文明的人，才敢与他们交往。 Yet I entertain'd such an Abhorrence of the Savage Wretches, that I have been speaking of, and of the wretched inhuman Custom of their devouring and eating one another up, that I continu'd pensive, and sad, and kept close within my own Circle for almost two Years after this: When I say my own Circle, I mean by it, my three Plantations, viz. my Castle, my Country Seat, which I call'd my Bower, and my Enclosure in the Woods; nor did I look after this for any other Use than as an Enclosure for my Goats; for the Aversion which Nature gave me to these hellish Wretches, was such, that I was fearful of seeing them, as of seeing the Devil himself; nor did I so much as go to look after my Boat, in all this Time; but began rather to think of making me another; for I cou'd not think of ever making any more Attempts, to bring the other Boat round the Island to me, least I should meet with some of these Creatures at Sea, in which, if I had happen'd to have fallen into their Hands, I knew what would have been my Lot. 我对这伙野蛮的畜生，对他们互相吞食这种灭绝人性的罪恶风俗真是深恶痛绝。所以，差不多有两年时间，我整天愁眉不展，郁郁寡欢，并不敢超越自己的活动范围。我所谓的活动范围，就是指我的三处庄园--我的城堡，我的别墅和我那森林中的圈地。这中间，那森林中的圈地，我只是用来养羊，从不派别的用处。因为我天生憎恶那些魔鬼似的食人畜生，所以害怕看到他们，就像害怕看到魔鬼一样。这两年中，我也没有去看过那只小船，只想另外再造一只。我根本不敢再想把那只小船从海上弄回来，唯恐在海上碰到那些野人。那时候，若落到他们手里，我的命运就可想而知了。 Time however, and the Satisfaction I had, that I was in no Danger of being discover'd by these People, began to wear off my Uneasiness about them; and I began to live just in the same compos'd Manner as before; only with this Difference, that I used more Caution, and kept my Eyes more about me than I did before, least I should happen to be seen by any of them; and particularly, I was more cautious of firing my Gun, least any of them being on the Island, should happen to hear of it; and it was therefore a very good Providence to me, that I had furnish'd my self with a tame Breed of Goats, that I needed not hunt any more about the Woods, or shoot at them; and if I did catch any of them after this, it was by Traps, and Snares, as I had done before; so that for two Years after this, I believe I never fir'd my Gun once off, though I never went out without it; and which was more, as I had sav'd three Pistols out of the Ship, I always carry'd them out with me, or at least two of them, sticking them in my Goat-skin Belt; also I furbish'd up one of the great Cutlashes, that I had out of the Ship, and made me a Belt to put it on also; so that I was now a most formidable Fellow to look at, when I went abroad, if you add to the former Description of my self, the Particular of two Pistols, and a great broad Sword, hanging at my Side in a Belt, but without a Scabbard. 可是，尽管如此，时间一久，我对食人生番的担心逐渐消失了，更何况我确信自己没有被他们发现的危险。所以，我又像以前那样泰然自若地过平生活了。所不同的是，我比以前更小心了，比以前更留心观察，唯恐被上岛的野人看见。特别是，我使用枪时更小心谨慎，以免给上岛的野人听到枪声。天幸我早就驯养了一群山羊，现在就再也不必到树林里去打猎了。这就是说，我用不着开枪了。后来，我也捉过一两只野山羊，但用的都是老办法，即用捕机和陷阱捉到的。因此，此后两年中，我记得我没有开过一次枪，虽然每次出门时还总是带着的。此外，我曾从破船上弄到三把手枪，每次出门，我总至少带上两把，挂在腰间的羊皮皮带上。我又把从船上拿下来的一把大腰刀磨快，系了一条带子挂在腰间。这样，我出门时，样子实在令人可怕。除了前面我描述过的那些装束外，又添了两支手枪和一把没有刀鞘的腰刀，挂在腰间的一条皮带上。 Things going on thus, as I have said, for some Time; I seem'd, excepting these Cautions, to be reduc'd to my former calm, sedate Way of Living, all these Things tended to shewing me more and more how far my Condition was from being miserable, compar'd to some others; nay, to many other Particulars of Life, which it might have pleased God to have made my Lot. It put me upon reflecting, How little repining there would be among Mankind, at any Condition of Life, if People would rather compare their Condition with those that are worse, in order to be thankful, than be always Comparing them with those which are better, to assist their Murmurings and Complainings. 这样过了一段时间，除了增加上述这些预防措施外，我似乎又恢复了以前那种安定宁静的生活方式。这些经历使我越来越体会到，我的境况与其他人相比，实在说不上怎样不幸；尤其是与我可能遭到的不幸相比，更应算是万幸的了。更何况上帝完全可以使我的命运更悲惨。这又使我进行了一番反剩我想，如果大家能把自己的处境与处境更糟的人相比，而不是与处境较好的人相比，就会对上帝感恩戴德，而不会嘟嘟，怨天尤人了。如果能做到这样，不论处于何种境况，人们的怨言就会少多了。
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