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简.爱！简.爱！"他光这么叫着。 "My dear master," I answered, "I am Jane Eyre: I have found youout--I am come back to you."" 我亲爱的主人，"我回答，"我是简.爱。我找到了你--我回到你身边来了。" "In truth?--in the flesh? My living Jane?"" 真的？是她本人？我鲜龙活跳的简.爱？" "You touch me, sir,--you hold me 你碰着我，先生--你搂着我. "My living darling! These are certainly her limbs, and these herfeatures; but I cannot be so blest, after all my misery. It is adream; such dreams as I have had at night when I have clasped heronce more to my heart, as I do now; and kissed her, as thus--andfelt that she loved me, and trusted that she would not leave me."" 我鲜龙活跳的宝贝！当然这些是她的四肢，那些是她的五官了。不过那番痛苦之后我可没有这福份了。这是一个梦。我夜里常常梦见我又象现在这样，再一次贴心按着她，吻她--觉得她爱我，相信她不会离开我。" 
从今天起，先生，我永远不会离开你了。" "Never will, says the vision? But I always woke and found it anempty mockery; and I was desolate and abandoned--my life dark,lonely, hopeless--my soul athirst and forbidden to drink--my heartfamished and never to be fed. Gentle, soft dream, nestling in myarms now, you will fly, too, as your sisters have all fled beforeyou: but kiss me before you go--embrace me, Jane."" 永远不会，这个影子是这么说的吗？可我一醒来，总发觉原来是白受嘲弄一场空。我凄凉孤独--我的生活黑暗、寂寞，无望--我的灵魂干渴，却不许喝水；我的心儿挨饿，却不给喂食，温存轻柔的梦呀，这会儿你偎依在我的怀里，但你也会飞走的，像早己逃之夭夭的姐妹们一样。可是，吻一下我再走吧--拥抱我一下吧，简。" "There, sir--and there!"'" 那儿，先生--还有那儿呢！" I pressed my lips to his once brilliant and now rayless eyes--Iswept his hair from his brow, and kissed that too. He suddenlyseemed to arouse himself: the conviction of the reality of all thisseized him. 我把嘴唇紧贴着当初目光炯炯如今己黯然无光的眼睛上--我拨开了他额上的头发，也吻了一下。他似乎突然醒悟，顿时相信这一切都是事实了。 "It is you--is it, Jane? You are come back to me then?"" 是你--是简吗，那么你回到我这儿来啦？" 
是的。" "And you do not lie dead in some ditch under some stream? And youare not a pining outcast amongst strangers?""No, sir! I am an independent woman now."" 你没有死在沟里，淹死在溪水底下吗？你没有憔悴不堪，流落在异乡人中间吗？""没有，先生。我现在完全独立了。" "Independent! What do you mean, Jane?"" 独立！这话怎么讲，简？" "My uncle in Madeira is dead, and he left me five thousand pounds."" 我马德拉的叔叔去世了，留给了我五千英镑。" "Ah! this is practical--this is real!" he cried: "I should neverdream that. Besides, there is that peculiar voice of hers, soanimating and piquant, as well as soft: it cheers my witheredheart; it puts life into it.--What, Janet! Are you an independentwoman? A rich woman?"" 呵，这可是实在的--是真的！"他喊道："我决不会做这样的梦。而且，还是她独特的嗓子，那么活泼、调皮，又那么温柔，复活了那颗枯竭的心，给了它生命。什么，简，你成了独立的女人了？有钱的女人了？" 
很有钱了，先生。要是你不让我同你一起生活，我可以紧靠你的门建造一幢房子，晚上你要人作伴的时候，你可以过来，坐在我的客厅里。" "But as you are rich, Jane, you have now, no doubt, friends who willlook after you, and not suffer you to devote yourself to a blindlameter like me?"" 可是你有钱了，简，不用说，如今你有朋友会照顾你，不会容许你忠实于一个像我这样的瞎眼瘸子？" "I told you I am independent, sir, as well as rich: I am my ownmistress."" 我同你说过我独立了，先生，而且很有钱、我自己可以作主。" "And you will stay with me?"" 那你愿意同我呆在一起？" "Certainly--unless you object. I will be your neighbour, yournurse, your housekeeper. I find you lonely: I will be yourcompanion--to read to you, to walk with you, to sit with you, towait on you, to be eyes and hands to you. Cease to look somelancholy, my dear master; you shall not be left desolate, so longas I live."" 当然--除非你反对。我愿当你的邻居，你的护士，你的管家。我发觉你很孤独，我愿陪伴你--读书给你听，同你一起散步，同你坐在一起，侍候你，成为你的眼睛和双手。别再那么郁郁寡欢了，我的亲爱的主人，只要我还活着，你就不会孤寂了。" 
他没有回答，似乎很严肃--散神了。他叹了口气，半张开嘴，仿佛想说话，但又闭上了。我觉得有点儿窘。也许我提议陪伴他，帮助他是自作多情；也许我太轻率了、超越了习俗。而他像圣.约翰一样。从我的粗疏中看到了我说话不得体。其实，我的建议是从这样的思想出发的，就是他希望，也会求我做他的妻子。一种虽然并没有说出口，却十分肯定的期待支持着我，认为他会立刻要求我成为他的人。但是他并没有吐出这一类暗示、他的面部表情越来越阴沉了。我猛地想到，也许自己全搞错了，或许无意中充当了傻瓜。我开始轻轻地从他的怀抱中抽出身来--但是他焦急地把我抓得更紧了。 "No--no--Jane; you must not go. No--I have touched you, heard you,felt the comfort of your presence--the sweetness of yourconsolation: I cannot give up these joys. I have little left inmyself--I must have you. The world may laugh--may call me absurd,selfish--but it does not signify. My very soul demands you: itwill be satisfied, or it will take deadly vengeance on its frame."" 不--不--简。你一定不能走。不--我已触摸到你，听你说活，感受到了你在场对我的安慰--你甜蜜的抚慰。我不能放弃这些快乐，因为我身上已所剩无多--我得拥有你。世人会笑话我--会说我荒唐，自私--但这无伤大雅。我的心灵企求你，希望得到满足，不然它会对躯体进行致命的报复。" "Well, sir, I will stay with you: I have said so."" 好吧，先生，我愿意与你呆在一起、我已经这么说了。" "Yes--but you understand one thing by staying with me; and Iunderstand another. You, perhaps, could make up your mind to beabout my hand and chair--to wait on me as a kind little nurse (foryou have an affectionate heart and a generous spirit, which promptyou to make sacrifices for those you pity), and that ought tosuffice for me no doubt. I suppose I should now entertain none butfatherly feelings for you: do you think so? Come--tell me."" 不错--不过，你理解的同我呆在一起是一回事，我理解的是另一回事。也许你可以下决心呆在我身边和椅子旁--像一个好心的小护士那样侍候我（你有一颗热诚的心，慷慨大度的灵魂，让你能为那些你所怜悯的人作出牺牲），对我来说，无疑那应当已经够了。我想我现在只能对你怀着父亲般的感情了，你是这么想的吗？来--告诉我吧。" "I will think what you like, sir: I am content to be only yournurse, if you think it better."" 你愿意我怎么想就怎么想吧，先生。我愿意只做你的护士，如果你认为这样更好的话。" 
可你不能老是做我的护士，珍妮特。你还年轻--将来你得结婚。" "I don't care about being married."" 我不在乎结婚不结婚。" "You should care, Janet: if I were what I once was, I would try tomake you care--but--a sightless block!"" 你应当在乎，珍妮特。如果我还是过去那个样子的话，我会努力使你在乎--可是--一个失去视力的赘物！" He relapsed again into gloom. I, on the contrary, became morecheerful, and took fresh courage: these last words gave me aninsight as to where the difficulty lay; and as it was no difficultywith me, I felt quite relieved from my previous embarrassment. Iresumed a livelier vein of conversation. 他又沉下脸来一声不吭了。相反，我倒是更高兴了，一下子来了勇气。最后几个字使我窥见了内中的难处，因为困难不在我这边，所以我完全摆脱了刚才的窘态，更加活跃地同他攀谈了起来。 "It is time some one undertook to rehumanise you," said I, partinghis thick and long uncut locks; "for I see you are beingmetamorphosed into a lion, or something of that sort. You have a'faux air' of Nebuchadnezzar in the fields about you, that iscertain: your hair reminds me of eagles' feathers; whether yournails are grown like birds' claws or not, I have not yet noticed."" 现在该是有人让你重新变成人的时候了，"我说着，扒开了他又粗又长没有理过的头发；"因为我知道你正蜕变成一头狮子，或是狮子一类的东西。你"fauxair"田野中的尼布甲尼撒。肯定是这样。你的头发使我想起了鹰的羽毛，不过你的手指甲是不是长得象鸟爪了，我可还没有注意到。"
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